I’m starting over again and am carrying the burden of guilt, lonliness and wasted time. But, like my friend Steve Cowen says, the place you end up is the only place you could end up. It’s not a ‘fate’ sort of thought. It’s not a ‘pre-destination” thing. It’s not a ‘god’s master plan’ way of abdicating responsibility. It’s that there are near infinite choices to make, decisions on direction, etc. I made these choices. I could have made others. I ended up here – starting over. It’s the only place I could be given the choices I made.
I’m not hiding, though. There have been times in my past where I’d have chosen to do that. It was the best choice then. Therapeutic avoidance. But, as an evolving human, I know there’s more now. What’s the best way to get there? Chances are, it doesn’t include that whole package of Oreo cookies.
Susan Scot Fry
Update… Getting there.