January 25, 2010

My life is not a project.

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I woke up many times this morning with a rush and swirl of thoughts in my head.  Most of them were Brave New World / Shakespeare in the Park / The Tempest related.  This is not unusual.  What is unusual is that I am able to flow with these thoughts easily this morning instead of feeling tired before even getting out of bed.

Why?  Because yesterday I made some good choices.  I prayed — it was short, but I did it.  I chose to spend a large part of the day with family.  I ended the day in front of the fire with a glass or two of wine and a novel.

My life is not a project.  It’s funny to think about this only days before the culmination of a huge amount of project work.

I tend to live in ‘pre-show’ mode.  You know, those times when you’re on the tail end of a deadline for some big event and you push yourself harder — you don’t get enough sleep — you don’t eat right — I don’t laugh — I don’t walk the dog — I’m irritable — I cut myself off from friends and family because there’s just no time….  You know, “pre-show”.

Then, the show is over and I dangle.  It’s a great show, but now here’s my life staring me in the face and it’s devoid of substance.  So, like an addict I start another project.

I love living intensely.  The trick is to figure out how to do that and to live a good life.  There’s an emerging theme in these posts about making conscious choices.  Combine that with some great regular habits and perhaps life can flow with the satisfying intensity of ambitious projects and the sustenance that comes from a connected life.

Significantly,

Susan Scot Fry

Update…

Yesterday was a good example of choosing to bring elements of “life” and work together.  It was a very full day and I did find myself falling into some old habits, but I was quickly aware of how false they were.

More on this…

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